BlogEntryNo366

life's not a fairytale. 

I've been blog, tweeterville, and fb hopping.

What i came up with today was a reoccuring theme - a depressing one i may add. 

i have a question to ask,

what is it that makes us feel our emotional ties and stability is too shaken that we go great lengths to get anything back? why is it so hard to let go? why do we insist on having a relationship that hurts us so bad?

i am not pro-breakups or pro-ending-a-relationship-because-you-are-incompatible. In fact, im quite the opposite. While reading tweeterville and fb, i noticed the number of people who were supposedly in stable and great relationships only to find out that they ended things. Imma freak i know, but i tear a little everything i see these people parting ways.

I'm human, just like everyone else, I have been through heart breaks. It tears and rips. Logically, i understand the facts and reasonings of walking away and i respect people for having the strength to walk away for certain reasons. But i'm guilty of answering all the above questions because i think hard and long before going into one. I am in one because everything is a "yes" and i am certain.

So, to answer the questions, sometimes it's because you poured everything into it. Other times, its because you're not strong enough. And other times, love is more than it means to other people or rather, because it doesn't make sense for two people who are say...serious about it, waited a year to get into one, consulted everyone, asked for confirmation and yadayada, you get the picture....to depart from each other. Its a simple case of - we were meant to be together or everything was going for us. To make things simpler, breaking up sucks and its hard. The consequences that follow are even harder the next time around.

Logically reasoning, i understand and respect those who were so serious but walked away. My question is, "was it really worth it?". If it was for reasons out of love that you had to walk separately whatever your reasons may be, i have no right to argue with that. But what about those who got out of one, and started seeing someone else a few weeks later? What about those with superficial reasonings? What was your defense in that?

My statements are biased, i know that full well. But understand that girls are delicate in nature - most of them. I'm just coming from the side that doesn't cope very well with break-up and heartbreaks. 

What do you do when people walk away? The natural progression is to tell yourself that no one is perfect and if you cant count on people, count on yourself. Apparently, i can't help myself from being fragile every once in a while and someone acknowledges that. As much as i acknowledge that i was trying to be self-sufficient 2 years ago, someone walked in and told me, "that's not you and stop lying to yourself". Now that i acknowledged the fact that i am not meant to be self-sufficient, i embrace the fact that i am made in such a way that i can fully understand hurt and identify with others. Perhaps it is God's way of using me to help others who cope as badly as i do. It is a gain and a loss - gain because i am a vessel, loss because you will never forget how it feels like.

But with all the bitterness, silver lining emerges every time. And i am thankful for circumstances that put people together. you know who you are.

Again, apologies if you disagree with my statements and my statements are biased. I just cannot comprehend how people cope so easily with others walking in and out of their lives.

I guess i will never understand the statement, "people come and go. Its the nature of life".

just to clarify, no. me and him are perfectly fine.

A thought came while following a few friend's on tweeterville and fb.

when you're in one, sometimes, you cant help but wonder,

what happens when all vanishes? how would you feel?