Disregarded
now i know how it feels like to be disregarded. it's a pissy feeling really. and a poignant one too.
i understand where the crowd comes from when they go all self pitiful on themselves.
as if self pity is going to make the fello feel sorry for you. if fello disregarded your existence, highly possible mr. fello wont give a crap if youre lonesome.
so, what do you do?
overlook the person too.=P
but reallyy...
you cant. mankind cares too much. the thorn among the lovelyadored love roses sometimes.
easier said that done. you cant just snap a finger and stop caring for a friend. oh, how i wish individuals were wired that way. in a blink of an eye, distress vanishes.
no matter how tormenting it is to care and love someone, i don't blame the fact and existence of care and love. It is hurtful at times but it doesnt hurt to check up and ask a person "How are you". You never know how the simplethings mean the world to someone else.
so what? you've been hurt. did that stop the almighty from giving second chances?
it sucks to care sometimes. all you'll wind up getting is the-silent-nonexistence-ignored treatment.
but others dont deserve it. why should they have to suffer maltreatment from you just because you were the one badly injured in relationships, be it friend or foe.
i dont want to have to live life and face God with questions about the very subject He knows best about, LOVE.
and the dreadful terror that i could have done something but i didnt.
even if i feel disregarded now, and God knows that's a miserable heartrending feeling, let's pray i dont repay disregardment and ignore to others.
and to the friend who disregarded me,
i'll just repay you by overlooking you
for the time being.
till my wretched soul gives way to joyy
and then i'll start caring againn..
yes yes. good plan=)
-Joanna, 1.00am
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