BlogEntryNo195

What if

I can't help it, im afraid of being vunerable, youknow? Ive more or less lived in fear of thingss my whole life.
I don't see anymore how someone can pour in that amount of trust when nothing is certain. Nothing on this earth is ever certain. I fall into a situation, and after a while, I draw myself back and close the door on a friend.



What if the arms that catch you, catch you by surprise?
What if some people really couldnt be trusted?
What if I lost my way?
What if the heart you fell for now, turns out to be the same?
What if it's true what they say?
What if I've made the wrong choices?
What if you find a thousand more unanswered questions down inside?
What if I got it wrong?
What if I've only been running as far as I can?
What if there's more to my anxieties?
What if the dreams you dreamt of were merely just dreams?
What if I loose people because i run away?
What if I loose what made me who i am?
What if I've been that person who's hiding?



What if and why. I dont see how. im sorry.

Hugs and kisses,
-Joanna, 8.35pm