BlogEntryNo183

i remember....

words written by someone hit me and evoked something inside of me. attached like a bug and it wont go away. it saddens me. the worst part is, i dont know why. havent i already passed the stage of weariness?

i remember. i remember now. i remember everything ever so clearly.
i feel like a person who's regaining consciousness after a memory lost. or should i say a rather long one. i really do. you know how you feel when you wake up from a blurry moment? that's how i feel.
i remember last christmas this morning. how, i do not know. it was the last thing i would remember. never was that significant i guess...but i remember everything now. it's all coming back to me and i hate it.

there was one phrase that i held dear to me. over due time, i forgot all about it. i guess you could say i chose to in a way. now, i think it really does make sense to me.

why are you making me remember all i conveniently forgotten? what are you trying to tell me? that im stronger than i think? or that there's something i forgot to discover on the way out?

i remember exactly what happened that christmas season. i remember the night before my birthday.

i remember now....sighh.

Hugs and kisses,
-Joanna, 12.12am